I know since a long time that I possess lots of it. I think that this need to express my creativity comes from a desire to put a little bit of myself in everything I am involved in. Those who want to detract me will say it is my ego.

I am now spending some of the little free time I have painting or drawing. It just feels cathartic to me, even though I would not dare showing my “works” to other people than my close friends. I have to admit that I hated art classes while growing up. However, when I think about it today, the reason for this dislike was probably rooted in the discreet-but-always-present feeling of competition that is maintained in all schools, and art classes did not escape from it with its “drawing contests”. As I achieve things solely for myself, I was not doing well in such an environment. Now I am thinking of taking a drawing class for next semester. Actually, I had originally planned on taking the class this fall, but some gut feeling told me not to do so, and I am glad that I have listened to it: one of my classes is giving me a hard time.

Another way that my creativity can express itself is in the cyberspace. I have recently launched a companionship website that I have entirely built myself, and I am very proud of it. I have spent countless hours on its design, but I did not mind because I enjoyed it, and I have learned many things about web design and image processing in the way. I am in the process of developing my own font for my website’s graphical elements and a custom template for the blog that you are currently reading. However, my university break is soon over so it might take some time before you see those modifications.

I could say that my website feels like a renewed virginity, but let’s be classy and simply call it a new start. The result of one great Catharsis.

October 31, 2005 | Category: Arts, Web and Computers